"she's a daughter hiding her depression.
she's a big sister making a good  impression.
she's your friend acting like she's fine.
she's a teenager pushing her tears aside.
she's the girl sitting next to you.
she's the one asking you to care.
she's your best friend hoping you'll be there"

i want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall & make all the girls jealous. i want someone who would sing to me at random moments. someone who is more goofy than romantic. a boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when i'm acting dumb. someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstaion games & then let me win. a guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh. he'd play with my hair all the time & surprise me with 25 cent rings. someone who i could share lollipops with & lay on a blanket with to count the stars. we'd buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other & squirt waterguns at each other in the house. but mostly ; some who would be my best friend & would never break my heart. he would just always make me smile.

i`m nowhere near perfect ; i eat when
i'm bored, i fall for boys too easily, i'm
vulnerable to believing lies,  i'm hoping
that one day i don't need a fake smile &&
made up stories to get someone to like me,
i live by quotes & lyrics that explain exactly what
i'm going through &i make up excuses for
everything. i have my best friends && my
enemies; drama & memories. i'm just your
average typical teenager

live the life you want to live
be the person you would be
proud of. make decisions
make mistakes. if you fall,
at least you fell because
you tried ; no regrets

We cling to music, to poems, to quotes, to writing, to art, because we desperately do not want to be alone. We want to know we aren't going crazy and someone else out there knows exactly how you're feeling. We want someone to explain the things we can't. We love everything tied up neatly, easy, simple, and when we can'tdo that, it scares the hell out of us. To not know the next step, or where you're headed, kills. Being unsure isn't in our plans. But its those moments, the ones where you risk it and step unknowingly into the future that assures us life is larger than we'll ever know...

I'm the biggest dork around,
But you never seem to care.
I'm always falling down,
But you catch me every time.
I'm loosing my mind,
But you always seem to get me.
I'm always saying stupid things,
But you just laugh and go along with it
I'm so imperfect in many ways,
But you always look me in the eyes and say, "But your always Perfect to me"

The days fade with the memories
we had such great times
our love was the talk of the town
But i missed all the signs
That you'd be breaking my heart
I should have looked past those unforgetable eyes
and looked past that fake smile i believed
and realized all that you were saying was lies
Now i know better
I won't make that same mistake...